Leadership & Possibilities

I've been thinking a lot about leadership and the possibilities that can come out of that. I've been thinking about:

• What kind of leader am I?
• What kind of leader do I want to be?
• Who am I leading, and where are we going?

As my Husband and I are leaders in a church, I often wonder what's our responsibility beyond what we know? I know our day to day stuff, I know what we're supposed to do and what we're not. What's expected and what isn't. But, sometimes I wonder am I leading the way people want to be led? Are we making the impact God wants us to make?

I just finished up a great book (a review is coming soon) and I've been reading the author's blog a lot lately for my own personal growth, knowledge and wisdom. This morning, I read something on his blog that really struck me and the ideas of leadership I've been dealing with and questioning. Here's what Pete Wilson has to say:

"I proceeded to tell him in the simplest of terms that a leader has a different calling than the player. A player just has to show up and give his best. A leader has to show up and not only give his best but make sure he sets the rest of the team up to give their best.

I said, “Son if you show up at that game tomorrow scared the rest of your team is going to be scared. If you show up thinking you’re going to get beat, the rest of your team is going to think they’re going to get beat.”

I’m often reminded that while part of my job is defining reality… seeing possibility is equally, if not more important as a leader.

Is there a chance they’ll get killed tomorrow? Absolutely

Is there a chance they’ll pull off the upset of the year? Absolutely. And that chance goes up if a leader steps up to the plate, looks each team member in the eyes and practices the art of possibility.

If you lead a church, an organization, a small business, or a family you need to be reminded the people following you desperately want and need to be led. They need you to define reality, but they also need you to practice the art of possibility.

They need not be reminded of what is likely, apparent, or impending for those things are obvious to the average person. They need to be reminded of what they cannot see on their own. They need to be reminded of what just might happen against all odds.

That’s leadership. That’s the art of possibility. "

That kinda hit me where I'm at! We all need leaders in our lives even if you are a leader. You need to be challenged beyond what you already know. If we challenge ourselves beyond what we already know, if we seek it out there's a ton of possibilities for our lives and where we can go. 

I'm called to be a leader in my home, for my child, for my Husband and in my church and everyday life. But, I don't want to miss a minute of what God might want to teach me through this season. What does he want to teach me in my own leadership style? Who I lead? 

I want to be this kind of leader. 

Community.

I've been thinking a lot about the idea of community. What does it mean to our everyday lives? What's the purpose? And, why should we pursue community in our lives? Those are just a few questions I've been pondering.

I think all of us would admit that being in relationship with people and the desire to share life with someone resides in all of us. It may be a spouse, a sibling, parent, friend or even a pet but we all want to share our lives with others.

We all have little communities all around us.

This is why we have block parties, PTA's, play groups for kids, small groups in our churches, and fill our lives with activities.

Even when God created the Earth he knew, and he had a plan for this idea of community. It goes all the way back to the Garden of Eden, the very "first" community.

In Genesis 2:18 he says, 

"It's not good for man to be alone, I will make him a helper suitable for him." (NIV)

We can even see through this scripture how God even at the beginning realized this need for community, so he created Eve for Adam. So they could live life together, and lean on each other.

People ask me all the time (once they find out) why I choose to fore go my cheer leading scholarship, at one of the top journalism schools in the country to go to a private Christian University after high school? My answer is simple; community.

When I visited North Central University (NCU) for the first time I knew it was the place I wanted to be. I wanted and desired that close knit community that NCU had built and is known for today. I went to public school my entire life, and the idea of surrounding myself with other Christians and being in such a place of encouragement was what I desired and wanted for my college education.

While at NCU you can't escape community, it's everywhere. But it's those moments of community and living life connected with other people where I grew the most, where I was challenged in my faith, where I met my best friends and ultimately my husband.

We see this model even in the New Testament, when Jesus choose to surround himself with the twelve disciples. Now, Jesus probably didn't need the twelve. One betrayed him, they were tax collectors, they argued. You might be thinking, who needs that?

But, Jesus knew the bigger purpose behind all that. I believe he choose the twelve in part for this reason if community. They challenged each other. He challenged them, they learned from each other.

Orion and I have said many times before in our ministry that we want to help people come to authentic relationships with Christ and with others. This is our ultimate goal.

This is how we grow, and become closer to God and each other.

I believe when you create lasting and authentic relationships you leave a lasting impact on the kingdom.  When we live life connected we're bonded to Christ and to each other.

I feel challenged to build the best "community" I possibly can around me. I feel challenged to help others connect with God and connect with people.

Some questions we can ask ourselves:

1. What are we doing to build community?
2. How are we/you building authentic relationships with those around you (in your neighborhood, your school, your church, etc?)
3. What more can we do to accomplish this goal of community?

I encourage you to look for those amazing opportunities in your life, pray for them even to build community. To challenge yourself to grow in your relationship with Christ.

Blog Etiquette: Right vs. Wrong

Recently, I had another blog "follower" of mine begin to copy my posts and ideas from Worley House and post them as their own. While, I was flattered I was a little annoyed at the same time. I've even had my images show up on other websites and in newsletter publications without me knowing it till I discovered it.

I reached out to my other bloggy friends to see if this has happened to them before and what did they do about it?

I think that blogging is an amazing form of expression, and there are some awesome blog writers out there that I am so impressed with and enjoy reading their blogs so much. I would never think of coping their ideas, posts or pictures with out their knowledge or permission. Besides, that I think that your blog and your posts are original to you and you should try to come up with stories and features of your own instead of copying other people.

This prompted me to write this post for myself and for all the amazing blogs that I read who's writers I know put lots of effort into writing their posts. So here's a few do's and don'ts of giving credit where credit it due!

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Pictures say it all, if using pictures from other public sites please DO give photo credit to that site or photographer, like this.

Give'em a Shout Out, If you love a fellow bloggers idea or post rather than steal their content and write something similar on your blog DO give them a shout out on your blog and point people their direction, like here. Your blog readers will thank you for pointing them to a fantastic new blog!

Don't follow, someone Else's blog if you plan on stealing content or ideas. They will find out and it's just plain tacky.

Copyrights, DO put a notice on your blog saying that everything is copy written. Just in case people don't know, they can see it and be warned like on my blog.

Writers block; If you have writers block (and we all do from time to time) instead of stealing another original content DO opt for weekly features that a lot of bloggers due that is considered "acceptable" and not stealing like Wordless Wednesday.

If you really love a story; or photo featured on someone else's blog make sure to send them a notice that you want to repost it on your blog before you do, like this blogger did for me! It makes them appreciate you even more, trust me!

Don't play dumb; If a blogger catches you copying them don't play dumb and pretend that you didn't do it. Take this opportunity to learn from this and come up with your own original blog. And DO delete the posts that you copied.

Families in T.V.

What do all these families have in common?

They all have children on t.v. and all all apart of TLC's line up!

So here's my question of the day:

Why have these other families not been publicly criticized for having their families and children on t.v? Why has the media and others spoken of exploitation of Jon & Kate's children but not of these families?

I personally do not care, I think each family has the right and choice to make the decision that is best for their family.

But, how can the media and people criticize Jon & Kate Gosselin for their children being on t.v. and receiving some of the same perks of fame and stardom that these families have as well and not say anything about them?

What do you think? Weigh in?

Boy or Girl

Boy or Girl?!

Boy?

Or Girl?

Stay tuned later this week to find out!

Tag You're it Pt. Dos!

favorite artist/designer: Chanel 
I love to create using: my camera. 
what inspires me: jesus and the love of my husband. 
favorite medium besides my own: wordpress, wish it was a free site. 
most inspirational city: Madrid, Spain. 
ideal weekend off: a trip to the beach for lounging and relaxing w/ my Husband.
favorite color: pink 
favorite musician: (of all time): tough call... I'm going to have to go with Celine Dion
favorite movie: love reese witherspoon & sandra bullock... i pretty much love anything they have ever done. But, I'd say Miss Congenality is my ultimate fave! 
favorite song: of the moment.... "I Will Not Be Moved"- Natalie Grant. 

favorite song lyric: geesh..... that's a tough one. 

If I could have any other job it would be: I probably would want to plan fabulous events and get paid for it!

I wish: I had endless amounts of time and resources to travel places with Orion, get my Master's degree, take classes and be with my family. 

Okay peeps, here's who I'm tagging: Jessie, Kait, Mrs. B, Alicia Marie

Decor Don'ts!

Recently HGTV did an article on the Top 25 Decorating Don'ts! I love decorating and after reviewing this list I've discovered that I've broken a lot of these rules! YIKES! :) How about you? How many of these have you broken? See my commentary and review of the list below:

25. Toilet rugs

Oh my gosh!!! My very first apartment after college, I was living on my own and it was my first attempt as decorating "my own place" I bought matching RED rugs for my bathroom! I still have those rugs but no longer use them. Probably should get rid of them.

24. Too many photos

Guilty as charged! My husband reminds me of this often. I'm a photographer, what can I say?

23. Ignoring the foyer

We don't have one of these, so that's easy!

22. Undressed cables

21. Out-of-place themes

20. Outdated accessories

19. Lopsided furniture arrangements

18. Keeping something you hate

17. Too formal

16. Uncomfortable dining chairs

15. Lack of traffic pattern

14. Everything matches

Guilty again! Just about everything in our living room matches. Now, I am realizing that it's perfectly ok for things not to match. And getting more inspired by vintage pieces I want to add to our room.

13. Following fads

12. Furniture that doesn’t fit

11. Too many colors or patterns

10. Floating rugs

9. Improper lighting

8. Frames hung too high

I've done this a few times!

7. Tacky couch covers

My first apartment in college I covered and outdated flower power couch with a waffle patterned cover. I don't think it was tacky. It was a much improvement from the flowers!

6. Pushed-back furniture

Oh, I've done this too! :)

5. Ignoring windows

4. Fear of color

I think we've been guilty of this a few times or two! Have you seen our house?! :)

3. Knickknack overload

2. Too many pillows

1. Fake flowers

Oh goodness!!! So guilty! I love the look of flowers but they are to expensive to keep in your house all the time, right?!!! I have a arrangements that are fake as The Hills! But, I love them and don't really care if I break this rule! :)

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What do you think? Which ones of these have you broken on this list? As many as I have?!!!

*99 Things*

Saw this on a blog, and felt compelled to participate. Things I've done in BOLD, and I've added a few of my own commentary for your enjoyment!

1. Started your own blog
2. Slept under the stars
3. Played in a band- the high school band w/ my sax!
4. Visited Hawaii
5. Watched a meteor shower
6. Given more than you can afford to charity
7. Been to Disneyland 
8. Climbed a mountain 
9. Held a praying mantis - what?
10. Sang a solo
11. Bungee jumped
12. Visited Paris- want to so badly!
13. Watched a lightning storm at sea.
14. Taught yourself an art from scratch
15. Adopted a child
16. Had food poisoning- one of the worst experiences ever!
17. Walked to the top of the Statue of Liberty
18. Grown your own vegetables
19. Seen the Mona Lisa in France
20. Slept on an overnight train
21. Had a pillow fight- if you haven't I'm concerned about you. 
22. Hitch hiked
23. Taken a sick day when you’re not ill- sad but true. shh...don't tell. 
24. Built a snow fort
25. Held a lamb
26. Gone skinny dipping
27. Run a Marathon
28. Ridden in a gondola in Venice
29. Seen a total eclipse 
30. Watched a sunrise or sunset
31. Hit a home run- back in my softball days. 
32. Been on a cruise
33. Seen Niagara Falls in person
34. Visited the birthplace of your ancestors
35. Seen an Amish community
36. Taught yourself a new language
37. Had enough money to be truly satisfied 
38. Seen the Leaning Tower of Pisa in person
39. Gone rock climbing
40. Seen Michelangelo’s David
41. Sung karaoke
42. Seen Old Faithful geyser erupt
43. Bought a stranger a meal at a restaurant
44. Visited Africa
45. Walked on a beach by moonlight
46. Been transported in an ambulance- it's true!
47. Had your portrait painted
48. Gone deep sea fishing
49. Seen the Sistine Chapel in person
50. Been to the top of the Eiffel Tower in Paris- hello #12
51. Gone scuba diving or snorkeling
52. Kissed in the rain- no, but ooohhh that's on my list.
53. Played in the mud 
54. Gone to a drive-in theater
55. Been in a movie
56. Visited the Great Wall of China
57. Started a business 
58. Taken a martial arts class
59. Visited Russia
60. Served at a soup kitchen
61. Sold Girl Scout Cookies
62. Gone whale watching -
63. Got flowers for no reason 
64. Donated blood, platelets or plasma - and got sick and never have donated again. 
65. Gone sky diving- heck NO!
66. Visited a Nazi Concentration Camp
67. Bounced a check- YIKES!
68. Flown in a helicopter
69. Saved a favorite childhood toy
70. Visited the Lincoln Memorial
71. Eaten Caviar
72. Pieced a quilt
73. Stood in Times Square
74. Toured the Everglades
75. Been fired from a job
76. Seen the Changing of the Guards in London
77. Broken a bone
78. Been on a speeding motorcycle
79. Seen the Grand Canyon in person
80. Published a book - not yet!
81. Visited the Vatican
82. Bought a brand new car
83. Walked in Jerusalem
84. Had your picture in the newspaper - yes, a few times!
85. Kissed a stranger at midnight on New Year’s Eve
86. Visited the White House 
87. Killed and prepared an animal for eating
88. Had chickenpox 
89. Saved someone’s life
90. Sat on a jury
91. Met someone famous 
92. Joined a book club
93. Lost a loved one
94. Had a baby- maybe soon!
95. Seen the Alamo in person
96. Swam in the Great Salt Lake
97. Been involved in a law suit
98. Owned a cell phone- Um, hello!!
99. Been stung by a bee

First things first....

I love decorating in general, you've heard me talk about it before! You've also heard me talk about Hubby and I's different styles. But somehow we've managed to live in this happy well decorated home together for almost 2 years. I was thinking today, about our first apartment together when we were newlyweds. It got me thinking about the "first" purchases that Orion and I made for our new home! When we were engaged, it was on one of many trips to Minneapolis from my parent's in Iowa to visit Orion that we went shopping for our new place. I remember filling up his bedroom where he lived with his roommate Eric, with all of our purchases for our new place when we got married. That day we bought the following:

3 matching candle holders from World Market

A rug for our living room from Ikea

2 throw pillows for our couch from Ikea

I look around our house now these items have moved, shifted and changed their purpose since they took up residence in our 1 bedroom apartment when we were first married. I wouldn't trade those days for anything but, since then I've realized that it's ok to not be so matchy matchy on the design and decor of your home, and I've learned to be a little more vocal about what I want in terms of what I want the home to look and feel like. 

What were some of your first purchases with your spouse when you were first dating, engaged or married?

Where are those items now?

Topics on my Mind today:

Couple things on my mind this morning as I watched the news, and other morning shows. Let's see what you all are thinking, and have a friendly discussion. 

1. Jon & Kate announce on their show last night that they will be separating and filing for divorce.

- I am truly saddened by this whole thing. I was floored and shocked when I started hearing rumors about them months ago, and hoped it wasn't true. Then in a whirlwind things got very quickly out of hand and here we are today. 

              a. I observed last night on the show that Jon seems very checked out.

              b. I do not think it's all one person's fault. Course not, they are married and need to work this out. It takes two people to make it work.

              c. once you stop caring then it's pretty much done. And that's where I see Jon at. From what I observed last night. 

- I read their book last Christmas,  and felt for this family. They have overcome so much, to be here. I've been watching since the beginning. And like most people I think you feel connected to them. My questions?

             a. how can a show like this go on when they are filing for divorce? I think they should stop filming now for their children. Take time away and figure this all out. It's gotten way to out of hand. I don't want to watch children go through a divorce, and watch their family crumble. Shame on TLC for not releasing them from a contract, and shame on Jon and Kate for continuing to go on with the filming. 

            b. I don't expect them to be perfect, and there is no perfect family. But, marriage is work and worth fighting for. I don't want to watch a family who won't fight, who will exploit their children for the sake of a t.v. show through a divorce. It may be good for ratings, but will not be good in the BIG picture of their lives. My plea, stop filming let your children be kids, and have any chance of "normal" again. 

Ok, there's my rant. What do you think? 

On, to the next topic on my mind:

2. The brawl between Perez Hilton and The Black Eyed Peas

For those that don't know here's the background of this story. Perez Hilton is famous for nothing really but writing a gossip column and bashing/ trashing many celebs on his online blog. One of many people he's bashed on his blog is Fergie & Will I am from the Black Eyed Peas. Now, allegedly Perez has said that Will I am jumped him in a club early this week and beat him. Perez is now bashing and ranting on his blog about how violence is not the answer, and shame on him for doing so. 

Here's my thoughts/questions:

- First of all I think what Perez does on his site by writing the things that he writes, and videos he posts about people is violence in a different form. It may not be physical but written abuse or violence. I don't think that's right to bash people like that on the Internet, and not expect those people in real life to be hurt of offended. Or at the very least, have some sort of reaction to it. 

- I don't condone the physical violence that may or may not have happened. But I think that violence is wrong in any form written, verbal or physical. 

- My issue is why is no one saying to Perez, what he's doing is wrong? Why is it seemingly ok for him to write the things about people that he does? That is violence as well. 

What do you think? What are your thoughts?

And lastly, I just want to say that it's truly sad that anything like this is happening in our world at all. People are not perfect, so I don't expect things to be rosy and sunshine all the time. But, I think instead of focusing our energies on these people we should be focusing on more important things and helping others. 

Saturday Edition; This N' That

Mani or Pedi? Maybe both.

Garage sales or Auctions.

Craigslist or Ebay.

French Press or Coffee from the pot.

Spa day or Shopping day.

Scrapbooks or Digital Picture Frames.

Snapfish or Shutterfly.

Myspace or Facebook.

Friday or Saturdays.

Sun tea or Sweet Tea.

Sonic or In n' Out.

'America's Favorite Family'

This may very well be the first, and last time I blog about this subject. I don't want to beat a dead horse or add to the opinions of many.

I've watched this show from the beginning. Orion and I love this show. We've always said that we relate most to Jon & Kate as a couple.

Tonight was the premiere episode of Season 5 of one of my fave shows Jon & Kate Plus 8. I've been looking forward to this for weeks now, but in light of tabloid rumors and all that's going on with this family I was truly sad as I watched tonight's episode.

You could see that both we're frustrated, hurt, and probably angry at a lot of things. I felt sad as I watched them talk about how they are 'doing everything' for the sake of their kids, and how they barely spoke at the sextuplets 5th birthday party, and how they didn't know what their future holds.

I agree their personal lives concerning the issues surrounding them are personal and should stay that way. I choose not to believe everything I read, but hearing them talk tonight I wish, hope and pray that they can work it out. Not only for the 'good of their children' but because they love each other and want to make it work. I believe love conquers all, and if you want your marriage to work it can.

I won't pretend that I have a clue what they are going through or how their lives have been impacted by this. I don't. I can only imagine how they feel or how I would feel having people invade my privacy or take pictures of my children and be so invasive.

People say, they brought this upon themselves. But, I don't think anyone expects this kind of thing. No matter, if they are on t.v. or not. I think we have to remember that they first and foremost were and are, a regular family that just were trying to tell their story and capture memories for their children.

Who asks for this? No one, I'm pretty sure of it.

I'm Inspired!

Found this story, on a blog I read regularly!

Click here and be inspired!

Thank you Shabby Nest for sharing!

Crossing Over

If you've been reading my blog lately you know I've been having terrible computer problems. Well, I've been thinking about starting to save for a new computer.

What do I need?

And what do I want?

In my thinking, I've decided that I am going to cross over from being a PC user my whole life,
to now buying a Mac.

This is HUGE for me because for the longest time I've not been a Mac enthusiast, they are more expensive, and I know nothing about buying one.

But alas, I am seeing the value of having one of these fine machines.

Does anyone have any good tips on buying a Macbook?

If so, I'd love to hear your thoughts, and where the best deals are.

Right now, I'm looking at buying something refurbished.

Thoughts?

The *Death* of Myspace!

I've been toying with the idea of deleting my Myspace account for some time now. The truth is that I hadn't logged in for months, I wasn't using it, I didn't have Internet at my house and couldn't log on anyway. So it sat, and sat for months, and life has been fine without it.

Here's my issues with Myspace; creepy, dirty and scary adds turn me off! The content is a little touch and go sometimes, you never know what people are going to post! And lastly, they say "Myspace is a place for friends" well, you know what else it's a place for? Viruses!! yes, that's right people..... the last time I logged into Myspace which was about a week ago my computer got a horrible virus on it. And just tonight when I logged in, that same virus came out again. I didn't make the connection last week, since I was only logged on for about 5 minutes. But tonight I was logged in and it happened again. I thought something fishy was going on.

At the risk of not being able to get in touch with my girls in Arizona I mulled over this for a while. So, I deleted my Myspace account for good, for once and for all! It's gone, never to be logged in on again, and hopefully I won't get anymore pesky viruses. My computer is dying, but Myspace had to go first.

So now, you will only be able to find me on Facebook! Which, I like it a lot better anyway!

Have a great weekend!!

Today.....

I actually got up at a decent time, made breakfast, and watch the Today Show.....

I took Bentley in for his first grooming. It was a suggestion made by the vet to help stop his ear infections. And since I'd been wanting to get him groomed for a while against Orion's wishes, this was a perfect reason to tell Orion why he needed the grooming. But I didn't know I would feel so sad leaving him there, when they asked me to leave......

I took my car in for an oil change, and came out with 10 other problems. Why is that?

I went to 4 different stores trying to find Orion's valentines gift....after the 4th I found it......

I payed bills, something I hate doing......

I gushed over new lenses, and flashes at Best Buy.......

This n' That

fresh clean sheets on a bed.......

or

warm socks right out of the dryer......

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new hair cut......

or

fresh painted manicure/pedicure....

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new shoes......

or

new jeans......

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finding a great deal....

or

getting something for free......

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first kiss........

or

first date.......

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birthdays.....

or

anniversaries......

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dates on the town.....

or

quiet dinner at home.....

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having just 1 baby.....

or

having twins......

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living in the city.....

or

living in the burbs......

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getting a handwritten letter....

or

getting an email.....

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What would you pick?

Preacher Man

Wednesday, Orion preached his very first night at Celebration to the youth. It was an awesome night, the kids really were involved and it was awesome!! Orion shared his testimony, it really made an impact. He has such an amazing testimony of what God's done in his life and I think it's so impacting every time I hear it. Sunday, morning we have a youth service as well and Orion preached this morning as well. This time he talked about Taming the Tongue in James 3. I hate to brag, but I did give him this sermon idea. I taught on this to my Jr. Highers a few years back, and gave Orion a kickin' illustration to use. What is it, you may ask?

We brought in a real cow tongue to illustrate the point to the kids about how the things we say effect the others around us, and sometimes the things we can say to others can be really nasty and hurtful. And, how we need to have self control, and say things that are up lifting and beneficial to people.

Orion, and his tongue.

It went over really well, the students were grossed out, and really curious all at the same time. Either way it really got their attention, and I think they are going to remember this for a long time to come!

Having done this illustration myself, I'll be really excited if I don't see another tongue for a while. Sometimes the craziest things, are the most effective at reaching students.

Just some thoughts.....

What is the deal with going to a coffee shop, and then having the wonderful twenty somethings who work there make out with their boyfriends or girlfriends? Where's the work ethic here? I'm pretty sure it all goes against the customer service code!

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Why do people say, "I lost my job?" Such an oxy moron! I didn't loose it, I know right where it is. It's just not mine anymore, it's someone else's. So does that mean they found it? Maybe people should say, they took it away from me.

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What does it mean when your puppy is pooping like crazy around your house? What does it mean when you take them out and they do their business...all of their business. And still you come back in and minutes later they have an accident in the house. It's like, seriously could anymore possibly come out? And wait....it does. I'm up to my ears in doggy accidents in the house. Any advice? I've tried everything the Vets suggested to rid this problem.

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Does anyone have any good leads on jobs? Cause if you do, I'd love to speak with you.

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Crazy Conversations

I had a weird run in today at the coffee shop, so weird, and kinda disturbing, so I had to blog about it...naturally.

So, I'm sitting here today in a coffee shop checking my emails, blogging, looking for flights to Vegas and minding my own business. I am sitting here away from the other crowds of people, in a little nook, on a couch. Most of you know, I am not a talker. I like to mind my own business when I am in public places, I try to be cordial and nice to other if they talk to me of coarse. Today was a doozy!

I'm sitting here alone when this guy comes in, sets his stuff down at the chair across from me. Proceeds to order his scone and coffee. Comes back, and says to me:

Guy: Oh, how's it going today?

Me: Good, thank you.

Guy: So what's new on the Internet today?

Me: Oh, nothing, just checking some emails.

Guy: Yeah, I know you're just over there looking at porn...I know everyone thinks it's just Guys that do it, but It's really the ladies that do it too!

Me: Um, no I am sorry I am definitely not looking at porn!

Guy: Laughs at me and winks

What!!! Are you serious? Sick! Can this be real? So awkward, that he said that to me. And he's still sitting here across from me. From that conversation I'm so creep ed out by this guy. What! Why are there people like this in the world that say weird and inappropriate things such as that?

I'm so disturbed!